
The framed reference #StarFishClub

The colourful framed reference
Adrenaline creating this rainbow spectrumed euphoria of mania
Wave after wave the mania and hupomania
But the shadow looms
A once rainbow spectrum frame of reference which knows loss of conscience
Reverts to black and white to filter this frame of reference
The dichotomy
Euphoria fooled into its clutches and spells a so say happier state to seduce me into its clutches
The lack of control
The lack of personal safety
The choice to have boundaries dissolved
Freedom from the dominators of my shackled past
Jailed in a wardrobe
Strangulation but these were just some
Drama the constant state
Eggshell walking to manage this status quo
Storms caught me unawares back then after the reality in that frame of reference mode of survival engulfing my throat at his hands to relax my body to survive at the clutches of his hands
Three knocks on the thin wall I managed
Flashing memories on film roll in my minds eye
This eased over time for some while others remain
My actions no is embracing
my survival
My freedom
And relinquishing my power
For the flaws of my illness are all hidden positives
I stand here now to break most cycles and I pledge to work on more
No longer trending water resisting and fighting the current of the tide
No I see my choices
For I choose to conserve my energy to maintain my restored frame of reference
Which maintains my inner stability
For I now float coasting the ebb and flows that life brings to this watered framed reference here on in.
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A constant state of trauma
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