
Handful of traumas? Wrong again by Michelle 💫 #StarfishClub #Bipolar #PTSD #PoetsHub #WritingCommunity #BraveWrite #poetry
If only
If only there was one
Handful of traumas
I would consider
myself better off
Than now for
more there lays
Like dominos
All Aligned
And yet
So many more
Now I see
Underestimating the quantity
The numbers
Assaults
Abuse
This vessel
witnessed
Judgements
Felt
Noted
So much Pain
shock ravaged this soul
Bipolar promiscuity
Bit it’s ugly course
safety boundaries admonished
In this heightened mood’d sight
Wrong chemicals firing
For this is a lifelong Condition
Yet tools I now have 19yrs on
To still and temper the bipolar beast
For it was in the hundreds
Short term memory
wiped
Dizzy appearance
Underhand subtleties
Catch and nip their bites
So flight course is always adapted
Now.
Yet then;
A black abyss within this minds eye for the self was lost so I thought
The disgust the contamination
the shame
the fear
the guilt
The resentment
All at myself
The plans of end life
For days weeks months years in end.
From the high while always I fearing the low
Yet now I am working through each one over one admonishing similar ones yet more appear.
End in sight
With rainbows aligned.
© Michelle JAN-2021
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